Have you ever..
tried to hold on to something..
as hard as you are trying to let go..?

I can't even begin to describe..
how much I miss you

As I entered the apartment..
For a split second there..
I am glad that I am back..
But suddenly it all hit me..
It's all gone now..
Everything..
Feels like I am stepping into ruins..
Remnants of what has been..
Slowly fading into the recesses of my memories..
Is this all that is left?
Memories..?
Once so real.. so tangible..
Now revisited only by closing my eyes..
It is scary really..
How this used to be a place I loved..
with the person I love..
Now become a place I fear to even step into..
Never thought this is the way..
I will say goodbye to this place..

I never even stood a chance..